energized passion.

I have passion for a deranged sense of life. 





Ever since I was a young girl I've made a pretty weird life for myself. Anything abnormal, weird or out of the ordinary attracts me like the plague. I like to distract my mind with thoughts of soulmates, astrology, ghosts, aliens, true love or anything that makes life more interesting.  I often feel I don't belong in this state of being. I live for the possibilities of different dimensions or an afterlife. Hoping it will all have a better, consistent feeling of happiness, as apposed to this life. I daydream. I am an ultimate dreamer. My dreams change every single day or even by the minute. I have visions of being an actress to portray all the beings of my bipolar self. I have dreams to help people in ways I wish someone could have helped me. I have dreams of being intimatly loved and vice versa. I have dreams of having many children, whether birthed by me or another, and giving them a life i've never seen. I have dreams of giving it all up and driving across the country, back and fourth, and just eating at every amazing food place thats been on diners drive ins and dives. I want to go on missions and experience life from all perspectives. Im passionate about being passionate. I am one who is driven by emotion only. Whatever strikes my fancy I run toward, but that doesn't always mean its good but I'm willing to accept that. 




Trying to tie my passion to a career at this point in my life would be silly. I can't even figure out what restaurant id want to start at first on my list. What flavor am I feeling today? What flavor am I feeling for lunch? I know it will change by tomorrow. Who am I to say that I could pin point any given direction I'm suppose to take, when not only me but life itself is changing. 





I just want to dance. 

I want to write music.

I want to laugh.

I want to play.

I want to be childlike.



To keep it straight forward, Im open to anything. I love all without judgement. I want experience what life has to offer. From A to Z. I want to know people and why they think a certain way. Why they act upon such and where they came from. I don't know exactly where to start. When I think of my mind and where I'd want to go with my passions, a cult comes to mind. THAT IS NOT WHAT I WANT. So why can't I think of anything? I've been trying to figure out my definite purpose since the age of 14. I've read books such as The Laws of Success and The Magic of Thinking Big. I write down all of my ideas. Since the age of 14 my mind had changed drastically and I don't believe it has stopped. I don't know who I am, or where I will be or better who I will be. Who I will help or where life will take me? Although I do know... on this journey God has placed me in such a place, I am able to walk day by day and touch lives as I go. Theres no rhyme or reason as to why or how, it just is. Thats life.










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  1. Prof. JeglinskiApril 3, 2018 at 2:46 PM

    Charlene,

    Beautiful post. I like the style in your writing - that it is part free write and mostly prose. In writing freely, you've come up with some fun language, original ideas and phrases, and the tone creates a fun read.

    You open up more questions than answers, which is ok... but I'm not sure if you answer the prompt. I like the honesty in your second paragraph, of not knowing which job to funnel your passion through, but I'd rather you throw out 10 weird examples than none. There must be some fun ideas out there/jobs that interest you... even if they are quite wild. Be wild. Go for it!

    I like your design and the overall flow of your post. The short poem between the paragraphs is a surprise/bonus. It's a nice, floating caption. It's unsuspecting. It keeps things interesting.

    Overall, great job. Think about specifics, though. Blurt out silly samples in the second paragraph and make it as strong and fun as the others.


    GR: 92

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