Where is the focus? There isn't one.


What am I focusing on?


Hard to say when I feel so empty. This week has been full of panic attacks and staring at a wall, with the same song on repeat. It seems to be the only thing managing to give me a wave of emotion.






Sitting deep in thought, I realize he made me think too much of the past and so much of the future. I was never in the now. 

I want to tell him everyday that I love him, though when I pick up my phone my hands begin to tremble because my soul knows he's no good for me. This feeling won't go away it hovers over me. Stuck in a bubble of breathless air. I feel so still but not at ease. 

I need you with me and that confuses me. The vision of you vanished in what seemed like a matter of moments. I keep reaching out. 




Having your whole life ripped out from underneath you is so devastatingly beautiful. Coming from a rough place, trying to find my place. 

Don't get lost. 
Don't get lost in the emptiness. 
Don't get lost in the wrong fulfillment. 
Theres beauty in the confusion. 
Were just young gods building empires. 
What does yours look like? 
What will it look like when you're done? 
Are you ever really done?






Comments

  1. Prof. JeglinskiFebruary 26, 2018 at 3:25 PM

    Charlene,

    Good post. I really like the images and design. The larger images, the metaphorical themes - it's all very cool looking and fitting.

    It sounds like you have some concerns about a relationship...? Your writing is fun in that it is very personal and thoughtful. It's somewhat vague to the reader, but that's ok. Abstract can be a good thing.

    Be sure to be mindful of how this relationship is affecting you. I like the first image of "insecurity". If this relationship continuously brings you this feeling, maybe it's not the right time for it. The joys must outweigh the pains, right?

    This is good. It's a bit scattered, but in a creative way.


    GR: 95

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