Swimming in intuition

I have passion for a deranged sense of life.  Ever since I was a young girl I've made a pretty weird life for myself. Anything abnormal, weird or out of the ordinary attracts me like the plague. I like to distract my mind with thoughts of soulmates, astrology, ghosts, aliens, true love or anything that makes life more interesting.  I often feel I don't belong in this state of being. I live for the possibilities of different dimensions or an afterlife. Hoping it will all have a better, consistent feeling of happiness, as apposed to this life. I daydream. I am an ultimate dreamer. My dreams change every single day or even by the minute. I have visions of being an actress to portray all the beings of my bipolar self. I have dreams to help people in ways I wish someone could have helped me. I have dreams of being intimatly loved and vice versa. I have dreams of having many children, whether birthed by me or another, and giving them a life i've never seen. I have ...

   "And I realize that no matter where I am, whether in a little room full of thought, or in this endless                           universe of stars and mountains, its all in my head." - Jack Kerouac      Me? What do I take for granted? Hmm... Well the sad truth is, a lot.         I have so many beautiful people around me. Those of whom would go to the ends of the earth in order to make sure I am ok. I have a beautiful, healthy, growing baby boy who has given me purpose. I have eyes that can read novels of fantasies and imagination, I have a tongue that can taste the fruit of the earth, I have ears that can listen to the thundering waves of the ocean, I have fingers that are tender to the touch. I am gifted beyond measure.   Open the door and let it in, the beauty of the         world filling the hollow within.   ...